Last August, my mom and I took a really stressful road trip vacation. We were talking about the baby, and she said something along the lines of "This would be a lot easier for me if you just moved to Seattle. What am I supposed to tell my friends? What if [name redacted] wants to throw you a baby shower?" I had not, up until that point, considered moving to Seattle. The original plan was to just have it here and mail it to the west coast or something. I had no intentions of leaving Chicago, and I was also pretty sure my moms friends knew what surrogacy was, so I still wasn't considering moving.
Things changed, life changed, Seattle ended up seeming like the best plan. Now my mom is absolutely flipping out about this. She doesn't want me to leave. She doesn't me to talk about the baby. She definately doesn't want me to keep this blog. When [name redacted]'s daughter saw the link to this blog on my Facebook page and mentioned it to my mom in passing, the world pretty much fell apart. How could I possibly talk about this in public? Now everyone knows!
My mom is going through a rough time right now. A lot of things are changing very quickly in her life, and this is just one more thing. Still. It'd be nice to get some support for once, instead of endless horror stories about miscarriages and cleft palates. I know pregnancy can be a freakshow, but let's hope for the best. I'll worry about problems as they come up, but I'm not going to just give up in despair right now.
No matter how much my mom tries.
